I felt so scared,
So terrified of the darkness,
Terrified of the darkness within me.
It whispered to me, called to me,
Asked me to step in.
I did! And to my surprise,
Within the darkness I found my light.
I am blinding !
We all have days when we feel sick, not just physically sick, like the flu or maybe a cold but rather drained. Some days we wake up and just feel as though we can’t make it. We feel tired, not just from hard work or lack of sleep but just tired of being.
Days where one just wants to curl up and sleep in bed all day because the outside world seems too much of a task to handle. Making beds, taking a shower, cooking breakfast, all these seem like tiny fractions of an issue.
I’d say all these daily routines don’t really need to be done, do they ? Today, just today, stay home and recover. Take some “me” time! Take a break.
A break from what ?
The biggest power humans hold – Questioning. Questioning the very fabric of life, the very fabric of reality they live in. What they believe and what they are made to believe in. Gullible humans who think they know everything. Who think they know the truth but in fact they know little or just an imperceptible fragment of the truth. To some, truth is merely a perspective or an explanation or something that they can see or hear or understand or simply just a parody of futile words that the person themselves or someone else puts in their mind just so they can convince their naive minds of the ludicrous logic behind the truth.
“Leave the games and Live the world simply.”
Stop keeping score, stop looking for competition. Stop putting someone else down so you can feel good about yourself. Just enjoy your life because you have only the limited amount of years to live and why spend it playing mindless, soulless games that at the end of the day destroy good relationships which you can treasure love one another, unconditionally. It is the perspective of doing better than the person who actually is not even looking for a fight is what leads to games and tearing up of relationships. Make sure that you are playing games for a reason, when it is understandable that something wrong has happened and you have to avenge yourself. Even then, you have to think – “Is it worth it?”
I thought I was fine,
The calm before the storm,
It came to my mind,
I am not even in a good form.
I remember I was a stick,
Ran fast and was athletic,
What happened to me?
Did I give up on me?
It all has been happening so fast,
It has been really hard to keep track,
A lot of things have happened in the past,
Which I need to store and pack.
I will have to move on..
So I can get back my groove on!
Be the funny me.
Be the real me.
I need to plan out the present,
Because it is indeed my future,
I need to motion a movement,
That will make me a whole new creature.
So here’s to hoping for the best,
Everything else can go to bed rest,
I will fight for me,
I will become the evolved me.
“Every Problem has its solution however twisted the problem would be.”
Don’t get blind sided by the problem that ambushes you. Don’t get paranoid and terrified from the problem that has transformed your life. There is a quick or rough solution. There is light of solution at the end of the problematic tunnel. You will find a way to the problem that is an obstacle in your life. You will find a solution to overcome the obstacles of problems that come in your way and haunt you to not continue towards your goals. It is a hard choice to dwell into your problem or find a long path to your solution that may require a journey of time, but you have to make the choice. Make the right choice of getting through the problem and finding the solution. Beating the problem to nothing, a small obstacle that you overcame.
Dear Loved Ones,
I have never been an open book. No one has truly known what I am or what I think. I have always shown a part of who I am to people. A sneak peek into my thoughts system. It is a web of thoughts that makes me and it will take eternity for anyone to cross that path, to get through to the wall I have created. This wall is basically all the thoughts that are not too deep but deep enough to be consumed by the public. This is the wall that consists of my thoughts that are personal but are protectors of the real world of thoughts that is not only personal but sensitive and close to my heart. It has taken me my whole life to build up this system. My thoughts are in a constant battle of arguments between the right and my want. My want is always the one to accept defeat even if it has a chance of winning. A chance to convert itself to a greater right. A better way of being the right. The right being right always barricades my want into being something more than my want. I know it is hard to understand. This battle is a constant behind the wall that I have built up. There is a wall, not fence that protects me from you vultures who try to destroy me, the true me, The right that barricades me for who I am. I am not an open book. Leave me alone in the big library of contacts. If you need me, I might or might not be there where you left me but I will return if you need me.